Thursday, October 15, 2009

^ I really do.
I need to get away from this place.

Every fucking time.
All those times ..
Times when I was trying to get over you,
I'd survive a couple of days or weeks without you there,
After that ; guess what ?
There you were. Doing something to get my mind / heart set back on you.
I hate wearing my heart on my sleeve all the god damn time.
Look how vulnerable my heart is.
I can probably fall for anything.

I really don't get it.
What's so special about you? What could you possibly have that other guys don't?
Honestly, I can't see it. Maybe it's your killer personality. Yes that I'd-totally-kill-for-a-guy-with-this-type kind of personality.
Get off my mind please.
Or do something that'll reassure me that I'm always on your mind too.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


i hate how i see your name everywhere, i hate how whenever i sign on i still scan my buddy list for your screename, i hate how whenever i receive a text i'm secretly hoping it's from you, i hate how i tell myself that i don't care but i actually still do, i hate how you can make me feel shitty yet the luckiest person on earth, i hate pretending to be okay when i'm not, i hate how my eyes just helplessly wander over to you, i hate how i always catch you looking, i hate how you never did anything about us, i hate how i can't figure out what you have that other guys don't which always leads me back to you, i hate how you send me mixed signals all the time, i hate how my brain never processes when you're around, i hate how my heart still beats for you, i hate the feeling of envy i get &the feeling of pain, i hate how i can love &dislove you at the same time.