He started attempting to talk to me again. Since that morning of the earthquake. Don't IM me, just text me to start a conversation. Or even better, start one in real life. I still care about you, but it's just that things have changed. Feelings fade, but that doesn't mean you can't bring them back up again. I just want someone to talk to. Sure I have plenty of other people to discuss things with, but they're all different. They're not the same, they're not who I'm looking for. I know you can help me, and I can help you with whatever you need. But on one condition, don't get us started again.
It would be so much easier in the long run to push you out of my life. To move forward, never looking back at you. To pretend like the last two years never happened and that you are just a stranger. It would be so much easier in the long run, but it might kill me first.
How's this ever going to work if all we're doing is constantly tripping, getting up, & falling all the time? Maybe all we're trying to do is get back at each other. All that we're feeling is jealousy. How did that word manage to sneak into our minds? Our thoughts about each other are already fucked up as it is, they don't need to get evenmore complicated. Why don't you just sit there and think about what you're doing, for a moment? Think about what you've done, how it makes you feel, and most importantly, how it affects me. Sometimes you need to look at a situation from both sides. Think about what you're doing first. Remember, actions speak louder than words.